I have spoken on how most of the damage to my body is healed. There are days when I barely limp even. I overcame my frustrations at having to abandon my plans for my future. I have gained many blessings over the years. However I have wasted 16 years of my life through depression. I can never regain those years, and I am having to deal with the consequences of those actions. To be more precise, those inactions.
I don't know how yet, but I do know that I want this to be used as a catalyst to help others. Since I have been revisiting the darker thoughts today, it seems more difficult, But perhaps I have settled down in this valley to reflect on where I have been, where I am now, and where I am going.
I have hopes and dreams that will never be realized. There are dreams I have now that I know will never come to fruition. But I do know that God has a plan for my life and I can trust Him. Now I just need to break off these shackles and rush off to face my future with joy. It will not be what I want....but I am sure it will be much better.