Another night with hardly no sleep. Part of it was from playing around with this......still have no clue what I am doing!! But another part was nightmares about a friend. Why do people make such poor choices, especially when they know the Truth? There are several people I know and love who are making decisions which break my heart. This nightmare was about a particular friend and how choices made destroyed so many lives, including his own. But it could have been about any of the others who are on my daily prayer list.
I can just imagine how we must daily break the heart of God. He continues to love us, but we are guilty of mocking Him, ignoring Him, or trying to make Him into a personal god of our own making. Do you really want a god who is just a "good ol' boy" who is willing to overlook our sins? Or, a cosmic Santa Claus who provides our material wishes.....whether we have been naughty or nice? I want a God who loves me enough to hold me up to higher expectations. One who will love me and forgive me, but wants me to give Him my best. I worship and serve the God who loves me too much to let me stay where I am right now.